A natural disaster is a close example to explain nature of change that one experiences, rightly calling it a tumbled situation. In case of a disaster, it is the loss of near and dear, material belongings that cause us loose sense of sanity. The jumping of people off world trade centre during 9/11 is another such example.
'My world' herein means our constructed world, so when i say 'my world tumbled', i hint at falling apart of our constructed worlds (in our minds). To make it clear, the meaning is, that we carry a way of looking at the world, with age it emboldens, and we try fitting everything in that narrow tunnel of understanding of ours. When that narrow tunnel of ours collapses, everything that is built on it, collapses with it.
Just imagine, all your goals, ideas, thoughts, emotions as having their roots in that singular view of yours, and a day comes, when you realize that it does not stand test of scrutiny. Imagine, what you would be as a person the very next moment.
What does such a situation mean? My experience tells me that you have the feeling of numbness, where you detach yourself from the daily 'you', and in a moment every cherished moments you had before, passes like a whiz, you can by yourself see, how like pawns on chessboard, things fall apart. Then there is silence, and then realization.
Why would I like to share such private and incomprehensible situation with you? Because I learnt a lesson.
After that moment, you are no longer you. The realization that you no longer are you has filled in me many voids, about my own understanding, about my understanding about the surroundings.
I believe, even though, i did not say to you, what that moment was? what were my realizations? It does not matter, as they again have come from my own tunnel, may be little bigger this time, than the previous one.
But for you, it means, if i may be allowed, there are many tunnels through which we experience. None of it higher/lower, right/wrong, good/bad. I guess this is what, seers what us to know, to rise above differences...
'My world' herein means our constructed world, so when i say 'my world tumbled', i hint at falling apart of our constructed worlds (in our minds). To make it clear, the meaning is, that we carry a way of looking at the world, with age it emboldens, and we try fitting everything in that narrow tunnel of understanding of ours. When that narrow tunnel of ours collapses, everything that is built on it, collapses with it.
Just imagine, all your goals, ideas, thoughts, emotions as having their roots in that singular view of yours, and a day comes, when you realize that it does not stand test of scrutiny. Imagine, what you would be as a person the very next moment.
What does such a situation mean? My experience tells me that you have the feeling of numbness, where you detach yourself from the daily 'you', and in a moment every cherished moments you had before, passes like a whiz, you can by yourself see, how like pawns on chessboard, things fall apart. Then there is silence, and then realization.
Why would I like to share such private and incomprehensible situation with you? Because I learnt a lesson.
After that moment, you are no longer you. The realization that you no longer are you has filled in me many voids, about my own understanding, about my understanding about the surroundings.
I believe, even though, i did not say to you, what that moment was? what were my realizations? It does not matter, as they again have come from my own tunnel, may be little bigger this time, than the previous one.
But for you, it means, if i may be allowed, there are many tunnels through which we experience. None of it higher/lower, right/wrong, good/bad. I guess this is what, seers what us to know, to rise above differences...
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